The Should Have Beens
Today should have been my 7th wedding anniversary, but here I am on June 18, 2018 not 7 years married, but 4 months divorced. My heart races as I actually type that sentence. I never dreamed for a minute that would be how life turned out. This is for sure not the story I would have ever written. I thought I had an amazing marriage. I had prayed and fasted fervently before choosing a husband. I had such peace and assurance from the Lord that this was ordained by Him. We had gone through significant trauma together in the first 18 months of marriage that I thought had only strengthened our marriage and brought us closer to God and each other. I had dreamed of growing old together, watching our kids grow up, and changing the world through the ministry God would give us. It's how it should have been, but not how it is. Lately, all the "should have beens" have been racing through my mind like a dramatic movie. Last Monday was my son's 4th birthday. I hosted a